my wildest dream

You should have seen it, my wildest dream. You weren’t even there and thank god. Thank god you weren’t there. That means that you aren’t my deepest desire as you have been for so many months. How many days and weeks and months have you been on my mind and what do I get in return? Absolutely nothing. Tell me you love me but make sure you are lying. Never tell me the truth again. Tell me how much you love me and how much you want me. But make sure it is a lie. Every night I find myself getting lost in the landscape of my mind and last night, you weren’t even there.